I often think about how different my life would have been if we would have had a regular childhood. My parents spent countless hours and miles on the road traveling for my brother's cancer treatments. He is alive today which makes it all worth it...but what if he hadn't been sick.
- Would we have traveled the world?
- Would my younger prettier sister have been born?
- Would we have stayed in the same small town?
- Would my parents still be married?
- Where would I be today?
I remember wanting so badly to go to the CNE (Canadian National Exhibition). My brother said he didn't want to go to some stupid shopping mall. He was surprised that we weren't shopping. We rode the subway and streetcar and spent the day. I've only been once....I guess it's soon time to take our kids.
I was able to go through the Eaton's Center with Dad, he took me to China Town where I got to see dead chickens hanging in storefronts. I was appalled at that...I was just a kid.
I wonder if my sister would even exist? Would I have the confidant that I have now. I can't imagine what life would be like without her. I know I'd still be Mom's favorite! But who would I coaster ride with, shop with, complain to, laugh at(kidding) with?
|I need to learn to live by that!|
I wonder what next Thursday will bring? Maybe more on this....Who knows?