Just a quick note! I'm still here enjoying some time at camp with no internet and bad cell service. Kids are having a great time as am I!!
I will be bacl to proper blogging as soon as we have a rainy day!!
Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
The letter C
Is for Camp!!
We opened the trailer today and aside from some wash out under the patio all is well. I am happy today sitting by the fire, listening to the quiet....relax time.
I'll try to post some pictures if I can get a stronger signal!!!
I tried to upload pictures, but the signal just isn't strong enough.
So far today we
-picked pussy willows
-played in puddles
-saw Canada Geese
-built a fire
-climbed a mountain (really just a rocky hill)
More tomorrow!!!
I'm happiest at camp!!!!
We opened the trailer today and aside from some wash out under the patio all is well. I am happy today sitting by the fire, listening to the quiet....relax time.
I'll try to post some pictures if I can get a stronger signal!!!
I tried to upload pictures, but the signal just isn't strong enough.
So far today we
-picked pussy willows
-played in puddles
-saw Canada Geese
-built a fire
-climbed a mountain (really just a rocky hill)
More tomorrow!!!
I'm happiest at camp!!!!
Monday, April 4, 2011
Totally Ignored Blog
We've been busy and my depression is on it's way back up again I think. Things have been crazy around here for the last couple of weeks. Here's a quick rundown!
- Beautiful weather has finally come to Northern Ontario
- Our nephew has moved in with us
- Great friend of mine had surgery last week
- New bedroom furniture for Jo
- We are dog sitting for friends
- Cupboards that have been in storage have finally been installed
- Fridge and stove have new homes in the kitchen
- Along with a new Over the Range Microwave
- Oak Post have been installed for the railing so we don't tumble into the stairway
Getting everything organized was no small feat. Since our nephew moved in he has been sleeping in the toy room so we had to get her toys upstairs so she has her space to play and our Nephew has his own space as well. He got her double bed and dresser and she got this fancy new single loft bed with the dressers underneath and plenty of room for the toys that we kept!
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| The New Bed |
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| Some of what had to be sorted |
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| More of what had to be sorted |
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| Her room is finished |
Friday, December 31, 2010
Good Bye 2010
I had thoughts running through my head of all the bad things that happened in 2010 and how I was ready to kick this year to the curb, but then I decided that maybe I should focus on the good things that have happened. I've been rather quiet in the blog department over the last week or so. Partly because my routine has been upside down because hubby and Jo have been home and I don't have that quiet time in the morning that I normally use for blogging. The other part is that over the holidays my depression decided to make an appearance. My moods have been very up and down and that seems to be the norm for me at Christmas. I think I'm on an upward path and maybe by next week when we are all back to our normal routines I'll start feeling better each day.
So, here are some of the good things that have happened over the last year!
2010 was a tough year, but I've learned so many things on my way back up from where I was in May. I lost my grampa, and although we all miss him like crazy it's comforting to know that he is no longer confined to a bed and hopefully where he is, now he is able to do the things he loved to do. My mother said she finds comfort knowing that he is with his mom. She died when grampa was only 2 and now he is with her and the rest of his family that had passed before him.
I'm hoping that 2011 brings good things for my family and that things will be easier for all of us!
2010 is on it's way out the door and with that brings the hope of happiness and health for everyone in 2011.
Happy New Year to All!
So, here are some of the good things that have happened over the last year!
- I've been able to spend more time with Jo!
- I've discovered my sewing machine again
- I've rediscovered how wonderful hubby can be
- I've been able to help my sister in many ways
- I've been able to go into the classroom with Jo
- I've learned who my friends really are
- I'm learning more about myself
- My father in law is 6 hours closer
- I know what I want to be when I grow up
- I started preserving again
- Homemade Christmas was a hit!
- I was able to travel the province and connect with family I had lost touch with
- I started blogging again
- I picked up my camera again
2010 was a tough year, but I've learned so many things on my way back up from where I was in May. I lost my grampa, and although we all miss him like crazy it's comforting to know that he is no longer confined to a bed and hopefully where he is, now he is able to do the things he loved to do. My mother said she finds comfort knowing that he is with his mom. She died when grampa was only 2 and now he is with her and the rest of his family that had passed before him.
I'm hoping that 2011 brings good things for my family and that things will be easier for all of us!
2010 is on it's way out the door and with that brings the hope of happiness and health for everyone in 2011.
Happy New Year to All!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Operation Home Made Christmas......
is almost done!
I have my calendars at Staples to be cut to fit the CD cases, labels ready to go on jars, sewing is done, jewelery is done and all that needs to be finished are the baskets that some of the stuff is going into.
As for the rest
We have helped out this year as we have every year. Maybe a little more so than we have in the past. Jo's school adopted 2 families and we sent along some new jammies and panties for 2 of the girls on the list. Our niece adopted a family and we bought diapers and formula for them. This year too we helped to make sure that 2 boys who are dear to our hearts will have a good Christmas. At times I feelalmost guilty looking at all the gifts under our tree knowing that there are so many others who are not as fortunate as we are.
My grandfather always that said that when you give, you get back tenfold. Knowing that an infant will have the proper nutrition for a couple of weeks, knowing that 2 girls will be going to bed in new Pajamas and that 2 boys will have the gifts they wanted under the tree is my "tenfold".
Jo knows too about helping out. She picked the pajamas and took them to school and we bought the infant stuff at the same time. I hope she realizes just how lucky she is.....
She is a funny little girl at times! We stopped the other day to pick up a basket of Christmas plants for my mom. I walked into the nursery and turned around and she was nowhere to be seen. I realized that the door to the store was still open. Another car had pulled in a just as we were getting out of our car and she was holding the door open for them. I think she waited holding the door open for 2 or 3 minutes. If only she could put those great manners to work at home!!
I have my calendars at Staples to be cut to fit the CD cases, labels ready to go on jars, sewing is done, jewelery is done and all that needs to be finished are the baskets that some of the stuff is going into.
As for the rest
- Santa is ready for action
- Everything else is almost all wrapped
- Almost all the groceries are bought
- The house is almost clean (Thanks Mom)
- One more day of school tomorrow
- Guest/Playroom is ready for company
- Laundry is waiting
We have helped out this year as we have every year. Maybe a little more so than we have in the past. Jo's school adopted 2 families and we sent along some new jammies and panties for 2 of the girls on the list. Our niece adopted a family and we bought diapers and formula for them. This year too we helped to make sure that 2 boys who are dear to our hearts will have a good Christmas. At times I feel
My grandfather always that said that when you give, you get back tenfold. Knowing that an infant will have the proper nutrition for a couple of weeks, knowing that 2 girls will be going to bed in new Pajamas and that 2 boys will have the gifts they wanted under the tree is my "tenfold".
Jo knows too about helping out. She picked the pajamas and took them to school and we bought the infant stuff at the same time. I hope she realizes just how lucky she is.....
She is a funny little girl at times! We stopped the other day to pick up a basket of Christmas plants for my mom. I walked into the nursery and turned around and she was nowhere to be seen. I realized that the door to the store was still open. Another car had pulled in a just as we were getting out of our car and she was holding the door open for them. I think she waited holding the door open for 2 or 3 minutes. If only she could put those great manners to work at home!!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
My Sister
Back when I was in the first grade my parents brought home a baby. The baby just happened to be a girl which meant that I now had to share my room. My life would have been much simpler if she had been a boy. Privacy went right out the window that day for me. Although I was only 6 when she was born I vividly remember that I was late coming home from school and my dad came to find me and I think I he was a little upset that I didn't rush home to meet her. I don't remember much more of that day but I do however have 36 years of memories. Some are clear, some I care to forget and days like today are ones that I will cherish. She snooped in my room, ratted me out for smoking when I was a teen, fell in love with some of my boyfriends, wore my clothes, followed me everywhere and was a pain in my neck most of the time. But, I was the first one to see her stand up in her crib and the first one to see her crawl. She wanted my brother's matchbox cars and I kept moving then further away! I was such a bully!!! Because there is a 6+ year age difference we had very little in common for many years. I didn't find out until we were adults that she snooped in my room and wore my clothes and shoes because she thought I was cool. I was the older sister. I never thought of it that way, I'm the oldest.
After we both became adults we went through periods where we were friends and then we were enemies. We talked on the phone for hours or fought through letters that we actually had to mail. Then for whatever reason, something changed and we became best friends. We can go for days without speaking, texting or even emailing. We can go for weeks without seeing each other and yet friends we remain.
She is a strong woman, a tender and patient woman. She lives her life with passion. She has had a tough go of things over the last few years and yet she continues. She has up days and down days but keeps herself going for her boys. She has been a nurturing and loving mother to both of them and has made many sacrifices for both of them and puts their needs ahead of her own. She is very independent and tough on the outside but if you really know her, you know that she is a soft and easily hurt on the inside. I now look up to her. I'm not sure that I could handle some of the things that have happened over the years as well has she has.
I try my best to help out when I can. To help her and the boys, to be a good sister to her and a good friend as well. She is turn does the same for me.
Today will be one of the days that I will cherish. I treated her today to a day of pampering at a Day Spa. We arrived and had pedicures together, she then had a manicure and I had a set of acrylic nails done. She sat for an hour in the massage chairs and I hope forgot about everything for the afternoon. It's not often that we make the time to do things together. Between children, home and work there aren't enough hours to do things together. I enjoyed watching her be pampered today. She truly looked relaxed and content this afternoon.
It's days like today that remind me how lucky I am to have a sister!!!
I love you and am forever grateful that being sisters has made us friends!!!!!
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| Late 70's |
She is a strong woman, a tender and patient woman. She lives her life with passion. She has had a tough go of things over the last few years and yet she continues. She has up days and down days but keeps herself going for her boys. She has been a nurturing and loving mother to both of them and has made many sacrifices for both of them and puts their needs ahead of her own. She is very independent and tough on the outside but if you really know her, you know that she is a soft and easily hurt on the inside. I now look up to her. I'm not sure that I could handle some of the things that have happened over the years as well has she has.
I try my best to help out when I can. To help her and the boys, to be a good sister to her and a good friend as well. She is turn does the same for me.
Today will be one of the days that I will cherish. I treated her today to a day of pampering at a Day Spa. We arrived and had pedicures together, she then had a manicure and I had a set of acrylic nails done. She sat for an hour in the massage chairs and I hope forgot about everything for the afternoon. It's not often that we make the time to do things together. Between children, home and work there aren't enough hours to do things together. I enjoyed watching her be pampered today. She truly looked relaxed and content this afternoon.
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| Me |
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| My sister |
It's days like today that remind me how lucky I am to have a sister!!!
I love you and am forever grateful that being sisters has made us friends!!!!!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
NaBloPoMo Day 10 and still going
I couldn't resist taking this picture the other day. Hubby even stopped the truck on the one lane bridge for me so I could take it without blur and the dirt on the window. It's a little creek that we cross on the way out to Nana's house. This is not on the highway. It's on one of Grampa's "shortcuts". It might actually be shorter distance wise, but time wise it's probably a little bit slower, but more scenic. This was the first time I have taken this route in a really long time...made me think of Grampa. We happened to be there during the deer hunt and it was the first time I had been in the hunt camp during the actual hunt and it was very different to be in there without him. It was quiet, nowhere near the number of hunters there used to be and the atmosphere was nowhere near the same as it was in years past. It's times like this that I wonder how Nana really copes with the day to day loneliness. I can't imagine..........
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Disappointment....
I've been having a rough few days. Nothing in particular....
Ok so it's a few things....
There are some problems between myself and 2 other family members. Not so much with one as with the other, but when there is a problem with one it always ends up to be with both. Does that make any sense at all? I chose to write a note and send it to them so that I could get some things off of my chest that had been bothering me for ages. It got turned around that the problems were all mine and they accepted no responsibility or remorse. I responded with another email and so far have had no response. I have been removed from their contacts on a very popular social networking site and above all of that, I am hurt. Hurt that the blood relative is putting their spouse first and not their child. I feel very protective of my child. If I see someone treating her in a way that I don't like, I will defend her. I don't understand how a parent cannot or will not stand in defense of their own children and allows their spouse to treat the children(we are all adults now) with such a lack of respect. It makes little sense to me. This has been going on for more than 25 years and I should be used to it, but it still bothers me.
We put my father in law on a list for geared to income housing here in our area about a year ago and we got a call last week that there was an opening! I went and looked at the place today and it's almost identical to the unit he lives is now which is 6 hours from here. Sometime in December hubby will be moving him here and I called one of hubby's sisters tonight to tell her and was hoping for some moral support and excitement that her father will be closer. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. He is a very nice man. He is an alcoholic and was not around when the kids were growing up. That is partially his fault and partially the fault of my mother in law. She wouldn't allow him to see the kids and he moved on. It was a long time ago and now the attitude of some of the siblings is that they don't know him, so why should they bother with him. If they would only take the time they would learn so much about him and realize that he would like another chance. He is in his late 70's and his health is not great at all. I can only hope that once he moves here that they will give him a chance and visit every now and then so that he can see his grandchildren. Time will tell, but I will very likely end up disappointed again.
Three years ago we had new neighbors move onto our street. A small family like ours and we really clicked. We spend weekends together, eat at least one meal a week together and have the same interests. I am really disappointed that they may return to their home town. I understand why they are going, I'm just going to really miss them. It's only 2 hours away and I know that there will be lots of mileage put on my vehicle on the weekends, but it just won't be the same as popping in at any given time. Fortunately where we camp in the summer is almost the halfway point between the 2 towns so getting together in the summer will be easier! On another bright note, they will be that much closer to the border, so day trips to the US for shopping will be that much easier!!!
Every year there is a group of ladies that get together for an annual weekend. We bring no children, no husbands just our credit cards and shopping gear. The weekend was supposed to be this coming weekend. Turns out that there is so much going on for everyone that it won't happen. I have already booked my flights using some points and I am not canceling. I will fly out of here on Friday morning and do some shopping on my own, then meet up with one of the ladies to spend the night in a hotel, just the two of us. Another friend who is celebrating a birthday on the weekend is going to join us for a few hours and we are just going to kick back and relax. Saturday we have a brunch to attend and then I am going to shop some more and then head out to spend the remainder of the weekend with my cousin and her family. I was disappointed when things didn't work out the way they were supposed to, but I am very excited about spending some time with 2 dear friends and then being able to spend some unexpected time with family.
I have had to force myself to continue with my 365 Photography Project, but it gives me something to focus on! I am still knitting and will be delivering 2 hats this weekend to my cousin's baby and am working on a funky hat and mitten set that I haven't decided what to do with yet! I have one finger that is raw from the knitting needles. I am using a worsted weight but added some fun fur to it and it's a tighter in the needles so my fingers hurt.
I think I've had a long enough pity party for one night. If you made it this far, thanks for listening! I have eggs to peel for lunches tomorrow and I have laundry to fold so that I can get it all put away tomorrow and then get my suitcase out and start filling it for the weekend. Maybe this weekend will be just what I need to kick my ass back into gear!!
Ok so it's a few things....
There are some problems between myself and 2 other family members. Not so much with one as with the other, but when there is a problem with one it always ends up to be with both. Does that make any sense at all? I chose to write a note and send it to them so that I could get some things off of my chest that had been bothering me for ages. It got turned around that the problems were all mine and they accepted no responsibility or remorse. I responded with another email and so far have had no response. I have been removed from their contacts on a very popular social networking site and above all of that, I am hurt. Hurt that the blood relative is putting their spouse first and not their child. I feel very protective of my child. If I see someone treating her in a way that I don't like, I will defend her. I don't understand how a parent cannot or will not stand in defense of their own children and allows their spouse to treat the children(we are all adults now) with such a lack of respect. It makes little sense to me. This has been going on for more than 25 years and I should be used to it, but it still bothers me.
We put my father in law on a list for geared to income housing here in our area about a year ago and we got a call last week that there was an opening! I went and looked at the place today and it's almost identical to the unit he lives is now which is 6 hours from here. Sometime in December hubby will be moving him here and I called one of hubby's sisters tonight to tell her and was hoping for some moral support and excitement that her father will be closer. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. He is a very nice man. He is an alcoholic and was not around when the kids were growing up. That is partially his fault and partially the fault of my mother in law. She wouldn't allow him to see the kids and he moved on. It was a long time ago and now the attitude of some of the siblings is that they don't know him, so why should they bother with him. If they would only take the time they would learn so much about him and realize that he would like another chance. He is in his late 70's and his health is not great at all. I can only hope that once he moves here that they will give him a chance and visit every now and then so that he can see his grandchildren. Time will tell, but I will very likely end up disappointed again.
Three years ago we had new neighbors move onto our street. A small family like ours and we really clicked. We spend weekends together, eat at least one meal a week together and have the same interests. I am really disappointed that they may return to their home town. I understand why they are going, I'm just going to really miss them. It's only 2 hours away and I know that there will be lots of mileage put on my vehicle on the weekends, but it just won't be the same as popping in at any given time. Fortunately where we camp in the summer is almost the halfway point between the 2 towns so getting together in the summer will be easier! On another bright note, they will be that much closer to the border, so day trips to the US for shopping will be that much easier!!!
Every year there is a group of ladies that get together for an annual weekend. We bring no children, no husbands just our credit cards and shopping gear. The weekend was supposed to be this coming weekend. Turns out that there is so much going on for everyone that it won't happen. I have already booked my flights using some points and I am not canceling. I will fly out of here on Friday morning and do some shopping on my own, then meet up with one of the ladies to spend the night in a hotel, just the two of us. Another friend who is celebrating a birthday on the weekend is going to join us for a few hours and we are just going to kick back and relax. Saturday we have a brunch to attend and then I am going to shop some more and then head out to spend the remainder of the weekend with my cousin and her family. I was disappointed when things didn't work out the way they were supposed to, but I am very excited about spending some time with 2 dear friends and then being able to spend some unexpected time with family.
I have had to force myself to continue with my 365 Photography Project, but it gives me something to focus on! I am still knitting and will be delivering 2 hats this weekend to my cousin's baby and am working on a funky hat and mitten set that I haven't decided what to do with yet! I have one finger that is raw from the knitting needles. I am using a worsted weight but added some fun fur to it and it's a tighter in the needles so my fingers hurt.
I think I've had a long enough pity party for one night. If you made it this far, thanks for listening! I have eggs to peel for lunches tomorrow and I have laundry to fold so that I can get it all put away tomorrow and then get my suitcase out and start filling it for the weekend. Maybe this weekend will be just what I need to kick my ass back into gear!!
Monday, October 11, 2010
10-10-10
Andrea over at the Fishbowl had a challenge to commemorate 10/10/10 October the 10th, of 2010 by taking a picture every hour on the hour with a picture! I messed up and did mine on the half hour, but did it none the less!
So here they are!
It was a great day! I'll post a recap on the whole weekend later!!
So here they are!
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| 930 Quiche in the oven |
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| 10:30 Getting ready to chop onions for the mashed potatoes (I'll share the recipe later) |
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| 1130 I'm finally taking a minute to enjoy the quiche |
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| 1230 I'm almost ready for company |
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| 130 Carrots are ready! |
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| 230 All the veggies and the onions for the potatoes are waiting |
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| 330 Texas Horseshoes are about to begin |
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| 430 Beer and Jello Shooter! |
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| 530 Turkey #2 is ready to fry |
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| 630 Part of the dinner spread |
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| 730 Part of the mess to clean |
It was a great day! I'll post a recap on the whole weekend later!!
Happy Canadian Thanksgiving Today
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
The Cake!! I made a Dragonfly Cake
On Saturday my child turned 7! I still can't believe that she is 7..Wow..
I had no idea what kind of cake to buy this year and a friend joked that I should make one. This is the first time in 7 birthdays that the child didn't get a store bought cake. I've always ordered a theme cake from the grocery store and this year I didn't!
I started by searching online to see what kind of ideas were out there andand found this website. I had first decided on a Lady Bug and then the thought of making and using Fondant scared me so I kept looking and after browsing decided to try a dragonfly.
I then had to figure out how many cakes and what sizes to bake. I started out with 2 bowls to make the head and a rectangle pan for the body and 3 round pans for the wings. I think I f I was going to do it again I would use all rectangle pans and 2 bowls. I used Pyrex bowls and lined them with parchment paper to be sure that the pieces would come out without breaking. I made part of the cake chocolate and the rest was regular white cake which I added pink food coloring to the pan I used for the body. I had a great time doing it and it was loved by all!!
I used 2 different colors of icing and purchased sparkles and some black licorice strings to make the antenna's and outlined everything else with a tube of black decorating gel.
The cake was a hit and loved by all...especially the birthday girl!!
I had no idea what kind of cake to buy this year and a friend joked that I should make one. This is the first time in 7 birthdays that the child didn't get a store bought cake. I've always ordered a theme cake from the grocery store and this year I didn't!
I started by searching online to see what kind of ideas were out there andand found this website. I had first decided on a Lady Bug and then the thought of making and using Fondant scared me so I kept looking and after browsing decided to try a dragonfly.
I then had to figure out how many cakes and what sizes to bake. I started out with 2 bowls to make the head and a rectangle pan for the body and 3 round pans for the wings. I think I f I was going to do it again I would use all rectangle pans and 2 bowls. I used Pyrex bowls and lined them with parchment paper to be sure that the pieces would come out without breaking. I made part of the cake chocolate and the rest was regular white cake which I added pink food coloring to the pan I used for the body. I had a great time doing it and it was loved by all!!
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| In the oven |
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| Starting to build |
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| I used tinfoil that I had torn too short to cover the board as my template |
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| In progress |
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| Parchment paper to cut the wings |
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| The larger wings |
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| Ready for icing |
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| The leftovers |
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| Wings are done |
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| Cake is done!! |
I used 2 different colors of icing and purchased sparkles and some black licorice strings to make the antenna's and outlined everything else with a tube of black decorating gel.
The cake was a hit and loved by all...especially the birthday girl!!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
How does this affect my family?
I have to be very thankful that my husband understands that there are some days that I just can't function. He has helped tremendously around the house. He took over cooking and cleaning the kitchen, helping with the child(more than usual), helping to tidy the house and a whole list of others daily mundane chores that I just couldn't find the energy to do. He let me sleep when I needed it, checked on my through the night when I was sleepless....He has truly been awesome through this and I'm not sure that I would have been quite so patient.
I haven't explained to my child that I suffer from depression. I don't think she is quite old enough yet to understand what that means. She has been angry with me because I have totally forgotten some of her weekly activities, she has yelled at me because I have fallen asleep when I said I would watch her and her friends in the pool, but mostly I think it has been harder on me because I just don't have the patience or the energy some days to do the things that she wants me to do. She is an early riser and normally I would be able to get out of bed, get her some breakfast and help her onto some of her web pages to play and then I would be able to go and lay back down. Some mornings I just couldn't get out of bed to do any of that and she would be angry with me. Now on the days that I just can't, she can get her own breakfast and her pages are bookmarked or she knows how to turn on the television and get her channels on. Nice parenting on my part.....She has always been very independent but I think mommy should be a little more involved...which in turn brings me down because I think that I am not being the parent I should be. It's a viscous circle. We have done a lot together this summer. I have to remind myself that she will only be little for a little while and I forced myself many times to drag my ass out of the house and take her places and do things with her. Just because I am not well doesn't mean that she should suffer...right?
I am doing my best to put my depression aside for her. Some days it has been impossible, but there have been other days that if not for her I might not have gotten out of bed at all. I have tried to keep her routine in check and not to take any of my frustrations out around her. I have to consider myself very fortunate that we have a great support system with friends and family and even our day care provider. My husband has been amazing in helping me. He has always been a very involved parent, but since I have been ill he has been more helpful in so many ways.
I guess the only thing I can hope for is that one day when she is old enough she will understand what I am going through and will understand....
I haven't explained to my child that I suffer from depression. I don't think she is quite old enough yet to understand what that means. She has been angry with me because I have totally forgotten some of her weekly activities, she has yelled at me because I have fallen asleep when I said I would watch her and her friends in the pool, but mostly I think it has been harder on me because I just don't have the patience or the energy some days to do the things that she wants me to do. She is an early riser and normally I would be able to get out of bed, get her some breakfast and help her onto some of her web pages to play and then I would be able to go and lay back down. Some mornings I just couldn't get out of bed to do any of that and she would be angry with me. Now on the days that I just can't, she can get her own breakfast and her pages are bookmarked or she knows how to turn on the television and get her channels on. Nice parenting on my part.....She has always been very independent but I think mommy should be a little more involved...which in turn brings me down because I think that I am not being the parent I should be. It's a viscous circle. We have done a lot together this summer. I have to remind myself that she will only be little for a little while and I forced myself many times to drag my ass out of the house and take her places and do things with her. Just because I am not well doesn't mean that she should suffer...right?
I am doing my best to put my depression aside for her. Some days it has been impossible, but there have been other days that if not for her I might not have gotten out of bed at all. I have tried to keep her routine in check and not to take any of my frustrations out around her. I have to consider myself very fortunate that we have a great support system with friends and family and even our day care provider. My husband has been amazing in helping me. He has always been a very involved parent, but since I have been ill he has been more helpful in so many ways.
I guess the only thing I can hope for is that one day when she is old enough she will understand what I am going through and will understand....
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Welcome
Welcome to my Blog!
I hope to keep track of my day to day achievements, the ups and downs of living with depression. I also want to showcase some of my talents. I like to knit, play with beads and read. As a family we enjoy camping, fishing and the outdoors.
I am mom to one little girl who keeps me grounded, husband to to a very hard working man and daughter to divorced parents who have both remarried.
Depression for our family seems to be a normality. My grandfather, mother and one of my siblings all suffer from it. I am in the midst of a huge melt down and fear how far down I will get. It's an uphill battle everyday...one I fight to climb....
I hope to keep track of my day to day achievements, the ups and downs of living with depression. I also want to showcase some of my talents. I like to knit, play with beads and read. As a family we enjoy camping, fishing and the outdoors.
I am mom to one little girl who keeps me grounded, husband to to a very hard working man and daughter to divorced parents who have both remarried.
Depression for our family seems to be a normality. My grandfather, mother and one of my siblings all suffer from it. I am in the midst of a huge melt down and fear how far down I will get. It's an uphill battle everyday...one I fight to climb....
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